Being suicidally depressed since you were 14 Doesn't have a lot of workplace applications But when you've been playing on Hard Mode For six years You learn your war around stagnancy Isolation And hopelessness.
Start by embracing the sunshine, Because being quarantined in late spring has its upsides. Open the windows. Let the light drown you, Warm and thick as maple syrup. There will be a time when you must again Have porridge plain.
Wash your bloody dishes. Yes, really. And make sure you have dirty dishes to be cleaning. Cook, eat, lick the plate, fill the sink. Put on your favourite musical whilst you work And sing badly.
Scream the notes you can't hit.
Scream the notes you can.
Save your best screams and scream every Thursday at 8pm (No one's going to notice then)
Watch movies you've already seen once. Watch moves you've seen ten times. You were never going to watch The Godfather And that's okay. This is a pandemic, not a cultural retreat.
Accept that the future has never existed. And it's not about start just by your asking nicely. There's a perfectly functional present waiting to be used.
Wear your favourite colour. Write a poem no one will ever read.